Smoking for film

my profile says "PROFESSIONAL ACTOR". - 2

I had thought i will share how i worked on my role. but  when i started it seems to be a personal secret that i am finding difficult to put it to paper.

but i need to give you something...

When i started i couldnot help being me... but as the days progressed i got to know more about the characer Nawab's life... the best way an actor can portray a character is knowing almost the same amount of information he has about himself.....

the more information you have the better the portrayal...

the walk the voice, the attitude all comes with the information.

Detailed Information is the key. Know everything that needs to be known... EVERYTHING....

After this it is a cake walk...

-SA

my profile says "PROFESSIONAL ACTOR".

Not one post regarding that. May be there were few entries regarding should i pursue it... how should I go about it and maybe giving my self  the hint of confidence that I can do it.

Recently, I got a role in a theater play. Though I was among the people who had started the theater group but i got an opportunity to be part of a film shoot as Asst. Dir. So i took it up. So, I asked my friends to go ahead with the play. So i was busy with the shoot and when i went back to the play.

The director had quit. So, one of the partners who was most experienced took over and since he was also doing a role. He asked me to take over his role but i tried to convince him to do it as the performance was in his home town and also i was also a bit irritated the way one of the other partners had behaved on my absence because of the shoot.

The play we are doing is a  adaptation of French play "Boeing Boeing". Where the caretaker of the house is a lady but here in the hindi version caretaker is a man.

One line synopsis of the play. is A guy Sameer is dating three Air hostesses at the same time and the caretaker and cook of the house Nawab helps him keep the arrangement in place. The whole arrangement loses its  balance when his old childhood friend Jagdish pays a visit. comes. and a storm delays and cancels the flights and results in his fiances coming home at the same time.

The first day i played Nawab and today after almost a week things are different very different.

when i started the reading i emoted well with the requirement of the text but as we went on the floor next day... i was all awkward and bad..

As the lines started getting imprinted on the slab stone of my memory i started getting more confident and more good with my act.

A lesson i have learnt during my training days real work starts only after the actor is line perfect. he maybe preparing the character but the lack of confidence that forgetting of lines is unmatched.

Talk to you tomorrow feeling sleepy.

-SA

bakwaas

बहूत दिनों बाद मैं वापस आया हूँ..

आज ये, कल वोह, परसों कुछ, तरसो कुछ और...

वहाँ पहुचने की हड़बड़ी में,

जहाँ का पता भी मेरे पास नहीं था...

कितनी दूर चला गया था मैं..

इसके नजदीक, उसके नजदीक, सबके नजदीक...

पर खुद से बहूत दूर....

उन को अपनी मंजिल समझ रहा था,

पर वो तो लंबे रास्ते के पडाव ही थे...

कितना वक्त लगा मुझे यह समझने में की,

मैं एक मामूली सा मुसाफिर हूँ...

मंजिल तो बस एक ख्याल है..

और चलना मेरा काम है...

साथी केवल एक हैं....

बाकि तो   सब मुसाफिर है बिल्कुल मेरी तरह,

चल रहे है अपनी अपनी मंजिल  की ओर..

किस के पास वक्त है अपनी मंजिल के अलावा कही और देखने भर का भी..

बात सही है मेरे पास भी वक्त कहा है...

आज मैं यहाँ हूँ कल वहाँ...

तो क्यूँ मैं उन्हें रोकने की कोशिश करता हूँ...

या वो मुझे रोकने की...

कोई बात नहीं अब मैं समझ गया हूँ....

मैं था  खुद से दूर, बहूत दूर...

पर अब मैं वापस आ गया हूँ और..

अब मंजिल नहीं बदलेगी....

मेरे पास बस खुद का साथ है और चलते रहना मेरा काम है...

बाकि सब बकवास है.....

-sa

no need for expression

less remains to be proven
less remains to be said
so less is going to be the number....

Shoonya

Life


What do I say in language that’s not my mother tongue. I have to because this language is ruling the world. My laptop doesn’t support my language my mother tongue Hindi. No I will not speak in the language that is my country’s official language. The reason being I’m not doing any official work. Infact, there is no official work for me.

Jeewan

Kya kahu main apne bare mein. Kya kehna chahta hu main… Kyu likh raha hu main…

Kyu zarurat padi mujhe mere apnee bhasha ki jise bhi main roman lipi main likh raha hu… laptop pe likhne ke baad aage ki baat apne diary mein Devnagri mein likhunga….

Pareshani….

Apne sapney ke peeche bhaagne se hone wali ….

Apne mann ki karne ke karan hone wali…

Apne dil ki sunne ke karan hone wali…

Apne alaash aur laparwahi ke karan hone wali..

Apne aazadi ki keemat chukane wali….

Apne tareeke, apne mutabik, apne hisaab se chalene ke karan hone wali…



Inn pareshanon se bachne ka kya; kya upaye hai…

Malum hai mujhe…

Inn saab ka bas ek hi upay hai….

Bina dare bas dil ki suno aur chalte raho….

Jeyo bas jeene ke liye,

saans lo aage badho, bas jeeyo, bina kisi umeed ke, bina kisi mapdand ke, bas chalo chalen ke liye….

Aasan hai kitna kehne…

Aasan kitna hai yeh sab padhna..

Aasan hai kitna yeh sab likhna

Aasan kitna hai yeh dusro ko batana

Aasan hai kitna uss bare mein sochna

Aasan kitna hai khwab mein apne ko waisa dekhna jaisa hum hona chahte hai..

Mushkil hai amaal karna..

Yehi hai pareshani …

Pareshani yehi hai meri..

Ki main jeena chahta hu bas jeene ke iye…

Chalna chahta hu bas chale ke liye..

Saas lena chahta hu bas saas lene ke liye…

Koi karan nahi chahta main apne hone ki

Karan zaruri nahi mere liye….

Kyunki karan hi saab kuch nahi hota …

Saab kuch; kuch nahi hota…

Main shoonya hona chahta hu…

Main shoonya hu aur wahi rehna chahta hu…

- Shoonya ( Sonu Anand)

had written for something it got rejected...

Get a dream; Believe in it;  it will do the rest for you.

For once I feel the title is enough to say what I want to, but I love to talk so I will. So, here I am writing.  It is so important to confront ourselves on about who we are. Believing in ourselves that we can be anyone we want to, with what we have in our armor. Many a times we won’t even have the armor but to accept that we can fight our journey to a dignified life. When I was a kid, I would question everything. I firmly believed I was trash and I became trash. Then I had a dream, it would run in my mind day and night my heart would long for it but I had no courage to confront that dream, believe in it and achieve it as I believed myself to be unworthy.

 One thing about dream is that it is a stubborn seed and it will grow to become a beautiful tree even in a desert. It doesn’t mind if you don’t water or nurture it, the dream won’t mind. Even if you give up on it, it will not give up on you. A dream is the best thing that can happen to anyone. It becomes the guiding light in the journey of life.

Once it happens the believe seeps in. Yesterday, I happen to see an animation film Kung Fu Panda.  Where the fat Panda is chosen to be a Dragon warrior, to his disbelief and others. How can a fat panda be a dragon warrior who can’t even catch his breath when he is walking up the stairs.stairs? But the point was that he was chosen, he had passion for Kung Fu. With the passion and love for the art he learnt it with time and when he was  handed  the dragon scroll containing unlimited knowledge only meant for the warrior. He found it to be blank. On introspection, he realized there is no secret ingredient for greatness, you just have to believe. And when he believed, he became the invincible Dragon Warrior.

It’s basic you need to believe you are what you want to be.  As in any sport once the player gets a feeling that he is going to lose he loses. So, It is important to be firm in your believe.  In the believing business believing in yourselfyou is the first step. No matter what you lack you can do whatever you believe in. Just give in the time for the seed to take shape of the tree. I once couldn’t speak in front of  anyone even those I knew but  with the believe belief that I am not a tortoise but a lion made me realize  I can, and I did, which made me a certified dreamer. Now, I just believe I can and I do. Don’t give space for doubt. You may have million of friends but your enemy is only one and that is you because unless you let, no one has the access.

One thing I want to add I have seen people who are taking support from their parents. There one point agenda is how to be on their ownindependent and sometimes what you want to achieve will be hard to get, just work on that, if you have support utilize it. Don’t keep thinking how you can free your folks rather think how you can achieve what is in your mind . Keep working because if you focus on freeing yourself you will entangle yourself more.  I speak by experience till I wanted to be on my own I would have to face the embarrassment of taking support again and again. When I accepted the support and believed fine lets work. I was on my own soon. Free. 

I read somewhere that the mantra for life follow three P’s -   be prepared, be punctual, be polite.

If all this is to preachy then man just chuck it. Do just this:  don’t give up on your dream as for living there has to be the passion of a dream.  As without passion you are better dead than alive.

If you have a dream!!! Good. If you don’t have, find something. I assure there will be one waiting to be discovered. So, let your heart lead you because I am where my heart is nowhere else. Listen to the heart as it is never wrong. Never. 

-          Sonu Anand

self importance

Every body thinks what they do or have to do, is the most important . If it's not done, earth will stop rotating on it's axis . Let everybody think that, They are  right ;)

Shut up!!!

You don't know what you can do...

So, please stop saying " i can't i can't"

PLEASE

Youths of today ...listen... listen... TO THE GYAN OF BLOODY past present and future..

Youths of today ....listen
bloody i am youth tooo......

i am under 25 or more than that  who cares but the truth is what ever

what matters
nothing matterss

all matters is you, do whatever you want to do.
 don't give a daaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmm
earn ,, eat feed yourself ..... have a place to live... nothing else matters

the only thing that matters is you

 live life like you want to live...
see things as you want to seee
do what you want to do...
be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
freeeeeeeeeeeeeee
freeeeee from
bulllshit
and bull shit....what matters is YOU!!!!!!!
listen youth of today:
i am a youth too..... under 25 or more
it doesn't matter.....
 What is truth??????
the real truth
and the real truth is that
we are youth of today
& oldies of future.......

don't be a ****** (use ur favourite one)  and say when old, in our times, in our times, in our times

bloody hell youth of today live your life like you want to live
don't be jealous of the youth of future...
when an ghostly youth....
 like youth ghosts of past are of us now

live your life on your terms as
the energy, the will, the desire , the power:
 to the touch the infinite ....
won't come back once it goes...

as what goes goes ...
in terms of time...
it is irreversible truth...

as it is well said there are no ONCE MORE'S in real life...

live like you see yourself living
fight  for it; die for it
work hard for it... give yourself for it...

completely 100% percent... nothing less..
as anything else...
doesn't matter.... it really doesn't

do whatever comes to your mind

just do it!!!!!!! as they say say

but,
to ruin the party let me add
BE RESPONSIBLE...

AND LET ME ALSO ADDD.....

BULL SHIT!!!!!

indian bullshit or american or world bull shit or use earth here bull shit will be bull shit.....

what i mean to say is that if you care you are damned...
bull shit Don't care, don't think just live live live

 till you  live....

-SA

When i saw you smile 10 years ago....

When I saw you smile 10 years ago....
I had no idea of your importance in my life...
we met... we became friends.. we lost touch...
but the bond remained....
an invisible bond....
meeting you again... after a loooooooong time...
& deciding to spend the rest of my life with you...
seems so obvious now...

but it was not...
when i saw you smile 10 years ago....

Now, You have become my guiding light
Now, you are the glue that keeps me together...
Now, that beautiful smiling girl is the most important  person in my life...

But when i saw you smile 10 years ago
i had no idea;
that 8th may will become the most important date of my life too...

Today, is your birthday....
what can i wish for you...
i will like you to have whatever you want to have in this life....
I wish you always be happy with me...
i wish we be together like this forever and ever....

But Birthday girl i have a wish that you need to fulfill today.....
I want you to see the same smile always.....

As, When i saw you smile 10 years ago.

lots of love and  A very very Happy Birthday Dear.....

  PS: Written on special request of a friend for his fiance's birthday.

Sonu Anand

for my birthday 17-4-2011

i had thought i will write this i will write that but i think all my thoughts sums up to this :)

I have nothing to be called materially worthy in this world.

But I am Happy I can say very Happy

because I have Hope and a trust on being on the right path :))))

AND NOBODY CAN ROB ME OF THIS :)

Sonu Anand

Niceeeee

Those who work at a thing heart and soul not only achieve success in it but through their absorption in that they also realize the supreme truth—Brahman. Those who work at a thing with their whole heart receive help from God.

- Swami Vivekanada

like this one too

This is the first lesson to learn: be determined not to curse anything outside, not to lay the blame upon anyone outside, but stand up, lay the blame on yourself. You will find that is always true. Get hold of yourself.
-SV

Someday Somewhere...

I was looking for my Mobile to know what date is today;
 but does it really matter what day, when or where????

the real thing that matters is what we have in our hearts...

truth or lie...
honesty or dishonesty...
forgiveness or revenge...
helpfulness or wickedness.

There are many things we look for in life.

Yes, every now or then we are looking for something or the other.

Sometimes I wonder, Why do i break my head all the time?

Seriously why??
Why do i need answer for everything???
why can't i just move on?
Why can't i forgive the wicked?

Who have done what they have done because they got what they got....

Why am i holding them up in my life in my mind??
Why not forgive them and let them go?

Go away you wicked people... go away from my mind...

i forgive you..
be blessed be happy
i won't curse... i won't care...

i 'm letting you go...

i can build my mansion again;
i can rise again;
i can trust again;
i will be what makes me;

ME

i won't change because of you..
i won't lose because of you...
Oh! wicked people

You are free...

To be true you are not my enemy..

My enemy is only me and my friends are many...

No matter what  situations or surroundings are,
If i lose it is only because of me.

No matter what, If i give up it is because of me.
the blame is mine because the effort has been mine..

No matter what road blocks you put...
the decision to stop has been mine...

I may share the winning trophy with my associates;
but the entire share in the loss is mine.
because the decision to stop has been mine.

Though you are irrelevant in my journey of life,
but you got to listen to this,
 anyways you are more interested in my journey than yours..

So listen...

though there is darkness all around my life now...

but listen my dear...

like the sun does not shine in the night;
but he is still burning...

So am I...

though you can't see but i am burning
I am burning...
with excellence...

And When my night goes 
My morning will come....

then,

I will shine as bright as hard as fierce

as our sun...

That you will put your Sun glasses on...

Sonu Anand

Anger is costly...

Since, I can remember I have known anger to be extremely costly in other words you can say it is a luxury for those who can afford...

Because every time you get angry it comes with a price tag.

Costly
Very Costly
Somethings money can't buy for those things you pay forever.

Someone's  irritates you, your  blood boils and you thrash that person.. or if you work for them you quit or if its your spouse you divorce them...

These are the   things which after sometime may seem irrelevant.

Your partner's irritating you on the fon... you throw the fon BOOM.. fon gone. but  partner's there and you are not even angry now... What to do??? somethings gone are just gone.

You may have noticed the people who get angry on silly irrelevant things are mostly on their own who will want bear them and WHY????

Because there is nothing in this world what you can get from me and only from me....
Every damn thing has an replacement...


So, I hope to keep anger aside and not be replaced.

Because i can be replaced you can be replaced ... every damn thing can be replaced.

Beware.. and don't be angry unless necessary...

or You are desperate to be replaced ;)
(like there was a person in my life who would do the same things and irritate me, con me in the same way but very sweet talker.. i let that happen few times.. but then enough is enough So... )
-SA

DROPS OF LOVE

DROPS OF LOVE

In the times of Swiss lewis, tax max, wiki mikki, 3G2G,

UG MG, CWG;

I money u money eat money sell soul money…

The circle of life on money…

Days getting darker and nights even more…

Who keeps all bright and who helps the axis roll,

In this crazy dazy hazy world… who cares?

Who cares? More than Swiss and lewis

About others?

Who cares? About others before themselves ….

Who? Cries when others do, who bleeds when other do????

Few very few…

Who labors continuously and sincerely….

First few days for their stomach… and rest few days for others…

Who lives for their own dignity as well as trying to get it for others too…

Who thinks everyone who breathes should be treated as one????

Few very few?????

I know one of those fews….

Lucky to know one.

Lucky because they are the ones who help keep the circle of life on axis…

Few drops can make an ocean…

I just hope these few keep on believing this;

I just hope these drops of love make an ocean of love one day.

Sonu Anand

Explorer of life.

It's been a long time.. a very long time. It seems i have made it a habit of apologizing for the long gaps in my blog entries.  i should start like this without any explanation and everything will be explained on its own......

Once upon a time, there was a boy named Sonu Anand... who was clueless :)))))))))) about life and what to do with the one he was in control of. He wanted something perfect and in this cause he kept fighting the odds which were many. His friends became enemies and enemies didn't seem to care about him anymore as they felt he had made one worst enemy anyone could have i.e himself.  He kept his wellwishers always worried about what he will make of himself. He has been a person who had been given proper support for whatever he wished but he wanted a perfect everything. He ruined many of his productive years by looking for picture perfect life not realizing that life is not still it is moving... you can have a perfect moment but not life.... So, one day he stopped looking for perfection in himself and others. because there is no bar for perfection He realized a person can do only one thing what he is capable of.. it may be less it maybe more. No reason to cry over it as they say he accept himself as himself  and then the code for success was broken and he became accepted by one and all. Hence, he lived happily ever after ... :))  Welllllll almost ;))



Recently, i read  David Copperfield by Charles Dickens ...It started with this line will like to share it.... It goes like this....

WHETHER I shall turn out to be the hero of my own life, or whether that station will be held by anybody else, these pages must show.