well well well..

well well well
today is the 25th day of the second month of the year..

happens to be the birthday of my sister..

wooo!!! lucky to have her in my life..

as a kid,  i would always be eager to be around her..

she was my star.. and i was star struck fan..
i remember once i had gone to meet her  when she was in hostel..
they dint let us meet.. i was kind of broken.. a bit sad..

then i started growing up..

i got in my teen.. her care started looking like intrusion..

i wish i had given her the control..
i wish i had i had let her shape me..
i wish i had not been stubborn..
i wish i had understood her love..

but i was foolish bugger..
what i learnt or i am still learning would have been made easier by her guidance..

well only if we could see our future..
we would know how to behave..
well we cant..

only our past shapes our future...

but well you are meant to learn your lessons the hard way..

when i was in my 10th grade.. she got married..

the day of her wedding i realized..

oh damn i am gonna miss her..
damn she will not be there to keep a check on me..

well no matter how much freedom you desire it is always awesome to have someone monitor your ways..

keep you on track..

slowly i understood what she stood for..

after she left..

we got more close..

she became my friend after a few years..

one thing that she gave me was..

she always listened to all my crap..
all my blabber..
all my day dreaming...
and take it all in without judging..

those who dont have somone to listen to their thoughts know what i mean..

but the best part was..

she would always give me reality checks..
she would never agree to something what didn't appear plausible..

she would  always tell me, that i was not being realist..

i know that hurts but thats better

you know someone, who would not fool you..

someone you can trust to be authentic..


authenticity is what we need in our people..

she is there for me.. she will always be there for me..

i can't express how happy it makes to have such a cool awesome sister..

love you my sister... i wish you a awesome birthday..

may this year be as you want it to be..

may you be as cool authentic and awesome for ever..

i know one thing that you are too sensitive..

tone it down sis..

dont bother what others are doing or saying..
well you cant control them...

you are too awesome to be bogged down by insensitivity around..

you be who you are..

that what i wish for you on your birthday..

i want to see my sister

fearless, happy with a big smile, always..

i hope you will be having a fun time with your amazing family..

wish i was there with you..

Happy Birthday Sister.. :)

your delusional Brother

love you always..