Almost Three years…..

Almost Three years…..

I had come to Mumbai with a clichéd dream to work in films :-) … For my graduation ,I applied to various colleges across India but got the first conformation from a Mumbai college….. Wow……My dad …. He immediately decided I should be sent to Mumbai before the other results were even disclosed….. I was really happy that I am going to Mumbai…. The funny part here is that my dad decided on sending me to Mumbai because of the fact that I had no friends here… Heeeee… I tried to appear sad as my friends wanted me to join them in Delhi…

So I was happy and my family was happy… too good…

Without getting into what happened in the first six months with me in Mumbai I will like to share about “almost three years”

My first semester was nearing and it was December…. Me and my roommate Subir were tense as to how we are going to fare in the exams….. as it had been a difficult and boring semester we had realized that our college was going to bore us…. We had no attachment or involvement in with our college nor our college was involved with us….:-) happens …. Happens to many in our country…..

On 6th December I was reading Bombay times……. I read an interview of Juhi babbar in which she had discussed about a workshop that their group did every six months….. I had seen her film and didn’t know anything about theatre… but wanted to act, and direct…. To say straight… I wanted to be a actor and director……. But primary goal was acting…..direction was just for cover … (I think so not sure) Called on the number given in the Ad…. Given by the theatre group which Juhi Babbar had just talked about…

They told me the fee was 7,500(which is 13k today) and student discount will be 1k. So, I took out the money from the ATM…. Called Subir told him about it…..Point to be noted I had never discussed my filmy aspirations with anyone but my eldest brother (pankaj, because this guy doesn’t stop you from dreaming like other people do, So I could not trust anyone with my dream,) . When Subir heard me he didn’t laugh as he shared a similar dream, he came from Arunachal Pradesh and wanted to be a journalist. These days he is with PTI( press trust of India). He covered the last year 26/11 with other senior journalists. He said let’s go to the address given and you join the workshop…… I was a bit apprehensive and scared as will I be able to complete the workshop or will I make a fool of myself….as I was very shy and self conscious (when my other brother Niraj, came to know I had joined a theatre workshop he was surprised as to how I will be able to work there as I was the person who could not speak in front of 4 people, when school held cultural events… I told my family today is holiday, so he was not wrong...) But inside I had a desire to do this workshop as it was part of my dream….

When we reached the venue for registration… seeing a lot of people I said to subir lets go back I don’t think I will be able to do this ….. but he motivated me and when I was filling the form he said Sonu you know we have exams from 23rd dec right and this workshop ends on 21st do you think you will be able to manage……. I looked at him and said yes…. As I won’t be getting another chance for 6 months and don’t know why I felt this is the right place for me….. when I told Hanif ji ( who today is my dear friend and teacher ) who was taking the registration that I am really nervous and I don’t think I will be able to do complete this workshop…. He said do you see the rehearsals going on… everyone there was as nervous as you… each participant will be as nervous as you are …so take it easy and I got the message that these guys treat everyone equally and respect even the newcomers…. I was relaxed as I was in safe hands…… Just then Juhi Babbar came out and said to Subir who was watching the rehearsal if you please outsiders are not allowed inside…. When we were going out he said isn’t she a actress her film had just come….. I said yes… he said she is very beautiful…. I said ya..and we left……. Without realizing that She is going to be my dearest and favorite Juhi didi in the time and years to come………..


To be contd……

Sonu Anand

approval

I am feeling a little restless these days …………. The reason I don’t know….
What I am up to is a complex question which I am not in a state to answer …….there is a reason behind that as I want to do things my way what I wish to do ………. I can’t look for approval from everyone….. because not everyone will approve as in life there are people who agree and who disagree with you………people say when there is disagreement then you need to convince what if the person who disagrees has a set mindset…. You can’t change that……Yes, I have faced many humans who believe their way is the right way like that saying my way or the highway….. If you ask me I too may be having those set perceptions which one I can’t say but I definitely have those…..

Now, when I say you can’t look for approval it can also be taken as a way of running away from the situation….. but it is as it is…. I have my own mindset which I can’t change … :-)

It is not a matter of bother for me if I don’t get approval as I have got used to people’s reaction some positive and negative…… I feel it’s my journey I have to create my own road. But it is also necessary for me to discuss with others so that I can judge myself… as self judgment is very important. You can’t live a life thinking whatever you do is going to be right … by discussing with others you get a real picture… and living a real life is better than living in your own world……even if reality is not beautiful …………………


Sonu Anand

discovered............

i am feeling good these days ..... why

because i have discovered the reason .....

i was wondering and was almost sure that there has been a problem in my approach towards work and people .....


now, i know...

few days back i was talking to my brother and we were discussing my work and things in my life....

He pointed out what was wrong.....

He said "i was compromising my self respect while working"

And he was true.... i did do that i never replied to my seniors even they were wrong...

fearing the reaction ....

or taking forward the saying " boss is always right"

but now i know i can't work that way ....

i may earn lesss but i need to be happy.... and that can come only if i maintain my self respect....

So, I am really happy that i discovered the flaw in my approach....

So, congratulations to me for a less complex future.....

and thank you Guddu Bhaiya......

Sonu Anand

trust

Trust in this world…………..



We are all alone

This is what everyone says

But is this true

No one knows



You are in this world

You need people’s support

You need their trust

You need to trust

But are they good enough

Are you good enough

No one knows



But then why do we trust

This is the question

We need to ask ourselves

We need to ask our provider

We need to ask everyone around

why is the trust broken

No one knows



There is a phenomenon

i.e. trusting blindly

this is what everyone dreams of

this is what we desire for

this what we want in our lives

but this can never be achieved

why

no one knows





we start a relation with a person

hoping that it lead to a height

where a infant and his mother stands

but it never does

never ever does why

no one knows…



the cause for this

is a very easy answer

which all of us know

but are afraid to acknowledge

that deep beneath we all

all of us are unfaithful

we are not trustworthy

we are humans

why

no one knows….



This very answer we all know

We all have or will

Break someone’s trust

Why we even don’t know

This is why I say

No one knows……..



One thing we all know

We all understand

This language is universal

We may not trust a fellow human

But we trust this thing

Our mistrust gave birth to this lovely thing

This thing equals trust

This thing has saved lakhs of humans

And the thing is PAPER……….

Why

We all know……







# just read this and forget…… nothing wrong with my life happy and trusting.





Sonu Anand

Long long time ...... it has been 51 days......

Long long time ...... it has been 51 days......



I wonder how fast time flies by........ Everyday i used to think i will write a post and somehow could not manage.......

Many reasons:-

1) No time ( not many times)
2) No net connection ( few times)
3) Nothing to write ( one or two times)
4) No mood to write ( most of the time)

Couldn't make up my mind just to write even though had urge to write but no mood, (weird THOUGHT )

Had been reading posts by friends and realized that the mood of bloging was only not in place. Because many of my regular blogger friends were not writing.

What was I up to I was doing a play that was performed at St. Andrews Bandra was a good experience and have realized no more plays for a long time . Then there was this job that I was doing in a PR firm was an O.K. experience Now no more P.R for a very long time. I would have said never but it is said ‘Never say never’ and we have to believe all this because nothing is in our hands. One thing I have always believed that you should do what you love doing…… but getting that work is not so easy, so we tend to get attracted toward the options available which seem easy but are not…….. so when we have to work hard to find work ……. Then why not work a little harder to find what we love……

In home, dad had a accident. And broke his leg so will be going to stay with him till he is fine again…… work will wait .

Sometimes I feel I write too sad things or to say I concentrate on negative thoughts……. I believe myself to be a positive person inside but when I talk about what happened to me … I get comments from my friends as I am negative….. but why do we expect to say good things even if the reality is not so good……. My believe is to remain positive even if the situation is not but also see the reality…..

What do you think am I negative person or the situation that comes in our lives are negative


Sonu Anand

sonu anand

The real issue is: Do you enjoy working (what u do)? If the answer is “yes” chances are you love what you do and you’ll work hard to improve, get assignments, and succeed!

My life in art till now......

My life in art till now......

It sounds weird to me that I am writng this... about my life as if i
have achieved a lot.
And it takes time and a lot of effort to achieve something that you
can call achievement.
I don't live in fool's paradise nor do i like the company of people
who believe such thing..
I have my own beliefs and so does everyone else. If you are an
achiever or trying to achieve
you must be able to understand what i am trying to convey. I don't
mind if someone looks down on me
for something i am unable to do because i am new at it... this is the
challenge i have to face... I should not stir
for someone else's believe....

I believe....
I know

THis is what matters.... this is what is important because this is my
life.... it will be how i want it to be
... It is not that i am arrogant or don't want to listen to other
people's views but the thing is i understand what i am
and know i am right..... just have to get used to things before
others believe it too because i am new....

We can achieve whatever we want to... we just have to stick
around..... you just be there in the battle field the war
will be won... it is not too hard... It is easy... Just keep
going..... because you know the reason for being there
.... because you belive the reason is true...

Sonu Anand