been Dead for a while!!!

I have been dead for quite sometime!!!

Not realizing I was dead, I went on my business

Doing things, living, trying to find meaning

Of the things I was doing.

Of the life I was living

Feeling a stench …

Not realizing why,

People were distancing from me…

Now, I know why

They were seeing a soul less body.

What I couldn’t see…. They could…

They saw that the soul less body was decaying…

They saw my smile

They heard my talks

They smelled my presence

& realized the hollowness of it all..

They spoke among themselves…

Told each other

That he is a ghost;

Of who he used to be..

He is of no use now…

He is dead now.

When did i become conscious of my death

I can’t say

But yes I did….

I realized I was decaying…

The light had gone

The joy was gone..

The soul had departed…

But not anymore…

I have been blessed with yet another chance…
in this case they say it is never too late
it is never to early..
all that is needed is the restlessness to be alive 

to live ... to go through each moment consciously...

I am alive now

My joy , my life is not hollow now…

My smile is genuine now…

My words are meaningful now..

I make sense now…

I have accepted the reason of my being…

I have accepted my purpose…

I have accepted my heart’s plight…

I know now,

 what can stir me

 through all the meaninglessness

 that comes our way…

I won’t give up on it this time…

I won’t let myself rot again…

I won’t let my soul fall silent again…

I won’t give up on my dream again…

I know now,

The worth of my dream for my soul

I know now,  

My dream is to my soul

What my heart is to my body…

I won’t let it die again..

My soul won’t suffocate again…

It will not be alone again

It will never be alone again..

-SA