i hate it when we try to do things for other people's happiness. Forcefully, we can't work for someone else's happiness

Burdened for life???

I close my eyes,

I can see,

I can sense,

Thousands of thoughts crawl past me.

Most of it relates to my dealing with humans.

I was born to humans,

So, I am burdened for life to behave like one.

I have a tendensity to ask myself.

Why me? Why only me??

Why should I be the perfect picture of humanity.

Why should I acknowledge the heart?

When I don't see others doing so.

Why is that I am aware of the difference;

between humans and other species.

Whereas others are not.

What made me aware?

Why this punishment only for me?

Why can't I forget the truth?

Why I am burdened for life to behave like a human?

This realization is very cruel

This burden is very heavy.

Sometimes this is termed as fake,

Sometimes this is termed as overdoing.

But every time it is termed as trying to show myself

Worthy, Intelligent, and so on….

Is behaving like a human so rare;

That it is termed to be an extraordinary state.

When I ask myself,

What is this realization,

The answer comes is….

Nothing….

Realization is not weighed.

It is felt…...

When communicating with others:

Adjusting to the sentiment of the other human,

Acknowledging their pain,

Accepting their stupidity,

Bending without getting broken;

To adjust the other one's ego.

It's all good.

All fine with me.

The feeling that:

I am burdened for life for being a human arises,

When a new realization strikes me….

That the other one I am dealing with is a human too....

The problem starts here....

The question is:

Why me? Why only me???

Why can't the other one

Acknowledge their human genes too?..

Why they have to use the residue genes of their last birth.

Why can't I behave like them.

Why I have to pay the price for being a genius.

Who understands what humanity is all about.

(almost)

Why I have to be burdened for life

To behave like a human.

Someone says be brilliant

But don't show your brilliance.

Be smart but don't show your smartness.

All you have to do not be a dumb,

But act as one.

The burden will be felt but it's impact will be less.

& so called humans will be happy too..

& you lead a successful, happy, stress free and weightless life.

You will float like a feather inside the human body.

But to not be burdened for life,

You need to act in real life.

Sonu Anand.

for my birthday

17/04/2010

 

friendship can happen among EQUALS.... or when we pretend to be so... there's no other way. if it's not so... then we are senoir- junior or worker -employee or so on... yesterday met a boy of 4 yrs we became good friends ... i questioned why... i realized i made him feel he is no less than me. may be more. what a great... thing to realize that too on my Birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

I Quit

My Dearest,


There are people in our life who you admire so much that what ever they say is an irreversible line for you. You are one of the few people in my life. I may lose my personal benefit but do as you say. I may leave my personal work untouched but complete what you say. This is a fact and I don’t think there is any doubt about it.

You have known me for long. You have known me since I knew nothing. You have been instrumental in whatever I have achieved. There has been a few times when you have been angry or to say annoyed with my behavior. There has been few times when I have not liked what you said but I knew you are few of the people in my life who has not to be questioned.
Never can I believe you are wrong. I have seen you working passionately and with 1000% dedication.

You know I cannot speak much. That’s a fact. I may memorize few lines and speak but in reality I can say nothing, I may say to people whom I don’t care, may leave people whom I don’t believe but I believe you. And I know you wish the best for me..

Thinking for a long time, but couldn’t say I don’t want to be a loser. If I am unable to complete something it haunts me. That I failed. I have failed in a few occasions before and it really hurts. I still remember what I failed in… I believe at least I should try, try my best. Rest is not in my hand. I am not the one who will decide that.

I need to finish the a few things. I don’t think I will be able to do the your works after one or two days as my few things are not less. I also have to complete the assignments of my college in a week need full time for that. I have also submitted form for my masters at a respected university. I want to crack that. I will accept failure if I try but not before that. For this I need to quit the work I am doing for you. So, today I will have to say I quit because my life is different from yours. I admire you but I need to let someone admire me too. For that I need to work on my personal goals and in that your work has no place.

I am really sorry but I need to Quit. As if I am successfull you will say you knew me or I will not be in a position to even cross your mind in years.

The truth is sweet and bitter. It is better if we accept what is as it is.

Yours faithfully

ps. fiction/non fiction.

synopsis of My play "Jai Durga Maa Hotel"

"Jai Durga Maa Hotel"

This Play deals about Bhaiya Bhabhi Who are the owner of this hotel set in their house. This hotel is situated in a Slum or Rural area of Urban Mumbai. Bhaiya is a Marathi while Bhabhi is from U.P. The Play is seen through the eyes of a Nepali who has run from his home and settled here his name is Lucky who considers himself unlucky. After losing all chances in his life Lucky wants to try his hand at acting. He also falls in love with a girl Soniya left alone by her father whose whereabouts are not known. There are few more characters who help the play move forward like- Mahesh( A call centre employee), also David, Pandit and Maulana three friend who always bully others. Now a little about the story, Bhaiya Bhabhi have a daughter who is mentally slow and they are worried about her future and there is Bhaiya's past failures which haunts his present life and relationship with his wife. They both don't bother about each other when they are together but due to few differences when they stay away from each other. They discover the love for each other. With the help of different emotions like Humour, Anger, Regret, Sorrow this plays talks about the owners of a lower middle class hotel who realise that the fights are part of a relationship but the best relation is of the one who fights and forgets. Hope You Enjoy the play.



Sonu Anand