why do i lie???????????????????????/ iam not somebodies duplicate

why do i lie..........................................
why can't i be true always........
what is wrong with me that i have to know.......
what is that i need to learn
what is the truth
why do i lie...................................................................

People compare me with some one else...............

Person 1. ooo sonu your hair looks like ..................

person 2. ooooo sonu you talk like him........

person 3. oooooo sonu you are really looking like ........... from this film....... of that actor.............

kid 1. oooo sir you look like that tv. actor....... did you intentionally cut your hair like that.........

Brother . ooi sonu why can't you be like me.........why are you sooooo................

dad. sonu .........i had so many expectations from you .................now look at mr.sharma's son he was dumber than you but now look where he is........

mom. sonu......... you keep looking in the mirror if you had been like .............................. you would have tried your hand at acting..............

and so on and on..............................................................................................

Why??????????????????????????

why compare someone with the other and make them both small.

i hate being compared. i am an individual. there is no one like me. i am nobodies image. i am my image .

I am a individual.

why do you compare me with someone else and make me feel small.............

why i resemble someone else. why could not i be just me.

but people are here just to compare. to compare you with someone who is on a different plane than you. to someone who is different than you. how can you compare.

why should i face that torture because of you. do you want me close my ears when i see you again. if not better treat me as me. no preconceived notions, no putting your agenda on me, no using me as your first tool for changing the world, i am not your laboratory, please let me live peacefully.............

i am me..........not someone else whose picture you have in your mind.

i won't change for you ..........

i won't change for anyone........

Don't irritate me........... you look like a looser when you try to correct me before correcting yourself.

Why and how can you expect me to live life according to you?????????????????????

How dare you????????????????????

Are you in your senses ????????????????????

i have only got around 70 years to live which is an average these days.............and you expect to live according to you, to live for you................

i will live life for myself...................i won't do that for you............................i have a lot to complete before i can start on the change list for me you had given...................... i have a lot of work to do.............. i will only help those who are around me or whom i can reach..............without getting up hungry..............

i won't leave my food to help you............. i can't starve i have a lot to do a lot to achieve.........i need energy ..................there is no guarantee that if i help you, you will help me back.........but if an am full i won't care

i can only help you after lunch........ i am serious.............. i will take my heart out for you...........

the only condition is my stomach should be full.

I know you won't like me and my words because you want my unconditional help and love..............

But i will have to say sorry as i don't work or do whatever be it love or help when i am hungry..........................


I am really sorry to disappoint you but this is how it is..............

this is who i am........... i am me nothing else......................

so let me be me don't try to change me.............

thanks

Yours truly, lovingly, faithfully (after having food)

Sonu Anand

(p.s. the dialogues about comparing are not real they are based on my and others experiences)